Need Prayer For Myself and My Daughter

by Anna
(PA)

My daughter is over 18 years old, in her first year at college and has changed her mind so many times about her future plans. She has always been very active and different in many ways from myself, yet I love her so much and really can't take all of the defiance, abuse and hurtful words passed along. This has gone on for too many years (since she went to high school) and has alot to do with my financial state not being that which her friend's parents/guardians financial state is. In other words, she equates alot of money with being loved and that shouldn't be. I have really tried to reach out to her and provide for all of her needs. But I cannot pay for much of her first year at college and she is so bitter about that and other things. She has very high expectations (ex. - what she wanted for her 16th birthday party and then when she couldn't have it all to her liking, said forget it, she didn't want a party). Then, the same thing for her graduation party. I never questioned my parents ability to pay for things. My dad was hospitalized when I graduated from high school and I never got a party, but never was nasty about it. I certainly understood the seriousness of my father's condition and didn't upset my parents about it. My reasons were a bit different, but nonetheless should've been honored and respected/understood. I just wish things to get better. I love her and want to reach out to her and make her know I'm here for her in other ways. I may not be the "friend" she wants, but I can be there as a parent and someone she can trust. I want to help her, but she won't let me and then she badmouths me in front of other people. It's very hurtful, believe me. I've had heartache before, but nothing compares to all of the stress she has created for me and her family. She always thinks her friends know best and we're unknowledgeable. I know she's had an obsessive/defiant disorder and tried to get her counseling, but she didn't take it very well at all! So, I pray for positive change and healing. My insides are so knotted up and I cannot be continually subjected to abuse either for my health's sake. Please pray for us. Thank you.

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