Prayer For Restoration Of Engagement and Relationship

by TB
(New Jersey)

Please pray for me; I was engaged recently up until June 23, 2008. I met my fiance, Frank in July 07 and we were engaged 3 months later. My fiance and I had an instant chemistry and attraction; I felt that I finally had found my soulmate because we understood each other deeply. We are close in age; I am 38 and he is 45. We were inseparable even when we were at work; we would call each other at least 4-5 times a day and e-mail each other; we would never leave each other or go to bed without saying that we loved each other. My Fiance found out back on May 13th of this year that I was in contact with an ex for over 5 months that I was trying to help through his problems including contemplating suicide. My fiance said that I betrayed him by being in contact with the ex and hiding it from him and he feels that I ruined our future which included marriage and our dreams of starting a family. When he found out about it in May, we had a long conversation about what I did. I stood up and took responsibility for my actions and apologized and told him that I will never be in contact with th ex again and I have not since May. Over the next 5 and a half weeks or so, we seemed to be fine; we visited family and friends, went out to dinner, etc. But on June 23rd, he came to me and said he could not stop thinking about what I did to him and he wanted his space and the engagement ring back. Well, that was 7 weeks ago and I have not heard from him since. For five weeks, I left him alone. But, on 7/27 which would have been our 1 year anniversary, I sent him an e-card, telling him that I was praying for his emotional/mental wounds to heal that I had caused by my deception and I hoped he was ok. Then last week, I left him a voicemail to let him know I was there for him and very much in love with him and was very apologetic again for my deception and told him that I hope he was fine. I am praying for his wounds to heal and for God to bring us back in each other's life; to reunite us and our love for one another. I am praying that God reveals to him how really sorry I am for what I did and I do love him and I want both of us to work through this together, including going to counseling so we can achieve our dreams of marriage and a family. I pray to God that he brings us back together because we had so much in common, we could read each other's thoughts and we had a very strong love for one another; I know this is my soulmate and I love and miss him so much; actually since the separation from him, my love gets stronger for him each day. I think about my deception every day and pray to God each morning and night and vowed to myself and God that I will never be deceptive in my relationship again. I know that with God all things are possible and miracles happen. Please place my fiance and I in your prayers; thank you in advance and God Bless.