Shamed Beyond Repair
To be released from my shame. My husband became seriously ill and I fell apart. Could not live up to what everyone thought I could/was capable of. I'm ashamed of myself and sometimes want to die. I cannot be perfect and failed and feel inhuman. People don't respect me. I take a lot of drugs to try and hide my shame, but it doesn't work. God forgive me. I have ruined my life/everything. God help me put it behind. Every day it flies up in my face. I've shamed my name/my family/myself. How do you live with yourself with this albatross around your neck? I want lots of drugs.
I can't stop thinking of how bad I look/people see me. God help me! I'm sorry, sorry, sorry! :-(